You know that feeling, that heart sinking feeling you get when people doubt your ability to do something; when people think you’re dumb. All of my life, I have felt this feeling. People always say to me “Lisa, you need to believe in yourself”, but what they don’t understand is how scared I am of failure. Isn’t it sad that I’m scared to tell people what I want to study at university because of the reaction that I will receive. On another note, I am so sick of my school. I am in my senior year and I cannot wait to leave. Not many people know this, but I am re-doing year 12 next year at another school. Today I informed one of my teachers of my decision and this is what she said to me, “None of your friends will be doing year 12 again, they will all be at University and you will still be stuck at school repeating year 12, you’re crazy”. Everybody these days are so quick to judge, so quick to make assumptions. If she took 5 minutes out of her day to listen to why I am re-doing my senior year then maybe she would of had a different approach to her reaction. I am re-doing year 12 to better myself, I bummed out this year and I am not afraid to say it. I strongly believe that it is partly my schools fault and partly my own. For me personally, I need change in my routine and I have been at my school, five years too long. So, next year is a fresh start for me. I’m excited, it just makes it difficult when you only have a handful of people who support your decision. But it doesn’t matter any more, this decision was made by me and that is all that matters.